So its official we have a toddler in the house! We woke up one day and our quiet serious little man had transformed into a chatty, curious, running, jumping , scratching, screaming biting little monkey!
When I was pregnant, Aleck and I would spend hours talking about how we thought our son would look and what sort of personality he’d have and the kinds of things he’d do and like. When he was born and we first saw him he was nothing like we could have imagined really. Not that anyone can imagine a miraculous moment as that. Its not as if I know what I expected but somehow he was not what I expected.
Mostly because I never actually expected an actual baby. Funny right. No but really the whole experience of being pregnant was somewhat surreal for me so that I had never fully grasped the reality of my son’s birth. Of course the universe having such a sense of humour soon grounded me into the reality of diaper changes, non-stop crying and constant feeding. I remember watching him sleep and play when he was just a few weeks old and saying how much I couldn’t wait for him to smile and clap his hands for me. Then he smiled for the first time and I couldn't wait for him to sit on his own. If he could just sit on his own and play I would say to Aleck, then at least I’d be able to put him down and do some work. So he sat and played with his toys. Then I was heard to complain about his right foot maybe being a problem- it was hindering his crawling. If he could just learn to turn that right foot and crawl I’d be so much better off, because then he could follow me around and I wouldn’t have to worry about leaving him alone unattended.
Of course my trooper crawled and eventually walked so his mom could walk him to the park without having to worry about having to push him around in his bulky stroller. Today I found myself wishing yet another milestone upon Tom and stopped myself. I’m always pushing him onto the next new skill and worrying about whether or not he’ll be able to develop at the right pace. But really in all honesty Tom is own person . He is a happy little boy going about his exciting new world.
He smiled and clapped and sat and crawled and walked and ran in his own time in his own way. And really that’s how it should be. So all I shall and should do is bask in the glory of having being blessed with a healthy happy über adorable son who right this moment cupped my face and said momma!
Mostly because I never actually expected an actual baby. Funny right. No but really the whole experience of being pregnant was somewhat surreal for me so that I had never fully grasped the reality of my son’s birth. Of course the universe having such a sense of humour soon grounded me into the reality of diaper changes, non-stop crying and constant feeding. I remember watching him sleep and play when he was just a few weeks old and saying how much I couldn’t wait for him to smile and clap his hands for me. Then he smiled for the first time and I couldn't wait for him to sit on his own. If he could just sit on his own and play I would say to Aleck, then at least I’d be able to put him down and do some work. So he sat and played with his toys. Then I was heard to complain about his right foot maybe being a problem- it was hindering his crawling. If he could just learn to turn that right foot and crawl I’d be so much better off, because then he could follow me around and I wouldn’t have to worry about leaving him alone unattended.
Of course my trooper crawled and eventually walked so his mom could walk him to the park without having to worry about having to push him around in his bulky stroller. Today I found myself wishing yet another milestone upon Tom and stopped myself. I’m always pushing him onto the next new skill and worrying about whether or not he’ll be able to develop at the right pace. But really in all honesty Tom is own person . He is a happy little boy going about his exciting new world.
He smiled and clapped and sat and crawled and walked and ran in his own time in his own way. And really that’s how it should be. So all I shall and should do is bask in the glory of having being blessed with a healthy happy über adorable son who right this moment cupped my face and said momma!
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